Gianna Bournazos

flew to london yesterday  waiting at the baggage claim only half my luggage came   yet double sits heavy inside of me today i’m sitting on a train  sipping wine to slow the pain  thinking of you will drive me insane  the way you touched my soul then went away  now i’m lying down in central london  stuck wondering about something your presence feels like an old fling  maybe i’ll see you again in a daydream  you were promised to be here with me  but now i’m here filled with doubting grief  maybe one day i’ll see you in a magazine  and that’ll be the closest to the diamond ring

i thought i knew you  but it was all a lie i found you at my lowest  you were hidden under a disguise  i was in the dark for so long i convinced myself you were the answer  the answer to all my worries and the  answer who could save me  you were nothing but a broken  dish that i yearned to put back together  in hopes that in the process i could be repaired as well but you did more damage than good  i shattered into a million pieces  while you glow all together again

if you’re trying to kill me gently it’s working so well told you how my heart has been beating through hell  so tired of lecturing all my internal soliloquies to you  you're not half the man i wanted and it's making me blue   

I wish I could forgive you, For all of the pain that you caused. I wish I could look into your eyes And tell you how much I hate your mind.  For all of my sorrowful tears, And all of our cat and mouse years, How could I ever move on like you? I want to forgive you to ease myself, But you don’t deserve my forgiveness, And you’ll never ask for it again anyway.  

catalina island thru my lense